A Handful of Hope

Hi, it's me Keun Ho!
Today, I would like to tell you about me.
I think I have lived very special life and someone may say "you have lived so tragic life."
Um, really I thinked long time ago I am unlucky man, but now I think it is my subject to overcome and after I overcome this subject, I believe I will grow up more.
I was born in Kwang Ju.
I remember when I was 7. I was very outgoing and curious, and I alway played with kindergarten friends.
I disliked to be in home alone, But sometimes I had to be in home alone.
When I was almost 8, My family moved to seoul. I entered into Wooi Elementary School.
Our family lived with mother's young brother who is my cousin.
Mother's young brother had one kid. He is younger than me 4 years.
He and I always fought. When I was 9, our family moved near the cousin's house.
I hated home at that time, because often nobody was in home.
Our family was always busy. Brother had to go academy, mother had to go workplace, grandmother had to go church ,and grandfather had to go workplace.
Because there was nobody in home, I always played with friends out of home and went to home too late.
In middle school, I didn't study at all and played everyday with friends.
So my grade was always F and I would like to go engineering highschool.
But I failed to enter into that school.
At that moment, I decided to study very hard and went to an academic high school.
In my high school, I really studied hard than anyone.
My most hard subject was to overcome trauma.
Do you know about this? It is really painful.
It follows me everywhere and every moment and torments me mentally.
Do you know what happen if trauma torments me?
Suddenly, I feel uneasy and fearful.
My trauma torments me when I'm in crowded place.
I didn't want to lose by that disgusting thing. I wanted to overcome this only with my willpower without any help.
I experienced many adversity in this time. I experienced deep depression and many mental disease.
Whenever I was in trouble, I always thought ' after I endure this adversity, I will grow up more.'
Finally, I got through highschool and entered into university!
Do you know how can I endure these adversity?
It was a handful of hope.
Today , still trauma remains in my mind ,But I always think ' after I endure this adversity, I will grow up more.' in other words A HANDFUL OF HOPE!